Showing posts with label loneliness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label loneliness. Show all posts

Friday, November 4, 2011

lonely

what does it mean to be lonely?
it feels like this:
every time you're home yet i'm alone.
so i sit by the window,
coaxing smoke,
out of dim lit cigarettes.
watch the chill break out of my skin,
and hope i can feel again.

i sit still in the tub,
as if on pause,
and listen to the water fall.
an ache, filled still 
with tepid water from the bath.
how do i still feel so unclean,
unsure and unredeemed,
with soap on the skin,
enclosed from heart to limbs?

now, now, it seems to be so,
my hands are trembling,
and i am alone.

you made me whole again.

lost in deserts
for some time
but you made me whole again.

dear friend,
i cannot comprehend
how you found me after so long.
and now i feel incomplete,
when you are no longer around.

dear friend,
for some time,
(some splendid little time)
you made me whole again.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

early august.

a moment of realizing i'm in a different place now, without the usual loving support of my family and familiar faces and friends around me - written in two ways.

(1)

The day ends, with a soft sky
Blanketing the sun, oh my oh my
The world gently slows down
As the sun kisses the ground
Lighting up the sky with lines of colors
The trees, ancient and old, stretch,
Shakily reaching up, to the sun
Their leaves trembling, as the day is nearly done
The cities slumber, dark and stark silhouettes
Stippled across the fire lit expanse
And I, I watch alone

(2)

The day has come to an end. She can tell by the changes in the sky, the way it undergoes a metamorphosis of pigments and hues. This is when the sun kisses the ground, cosseting the world in color as it does so. The light glimmers and shivers, blurring in the august heat.

She pictures the mourning of the trees and flowers, all wanting a moment longing with the sun's glory. Their leaves are shaking, trembling, reaching out to the sky. A lone leaf struggles, but wavers and flutters slowly to the ground. She stands on her balcony twelve stories high, feeling adrift in the sky, feeling shipwrecked on the rush of light and dark caressing the land. Standing still and silent, she feels as though the sun's sweet melody is playing in her mind. Whispering words of how the world turns and how it has aged, once young and green, now turning black and gray with steel.

She shivers, though it is warm outside. The breeze has picked up and is whistling through the trees. And so she hugs herself, and imagines it is a technicolor embrace from the sky.

Saturday, February 13, 2010

tonight. the sky.

i went outside on my balcony. it was chilly and foggy and the lights of the buildings around me burned in a soft glow. i felt less alone, because with every light, there must be a soul, living, breathing. And, maybe some of these lights that shine at night has an owner thinking about life, and maybe, just maybe, feeling the same way i do.